Friday, July 17, 2009


It's 1:30am on Friday morning and I'm sitting here wondering why there are so many negative people in the world today. I know it's a heavy subject for this hour but after some of the messages I've received from people who seemly have nothing better to do then wreak havoc on others, I can't help but ponder. Are some people in this world so miserable with their own existence it pains them to see anyone else having even the smallest hint of enjoyment? Don't these people realize that there is no one who has not had a string of bad luck, experienced a tragedy or had some form of 'hard times' in their lives? I'm no saint, never have claimed to be. I've had more ups in down in my life then a porn star has in her whole career! lol! But I try to make the most of a bad situation, not take it out on anyone else and move on with my life. Some things just can't be changed no matter how hard we try, how hard we pray or wish them to be different. I guess I'm just trying to figure these folks out, get a clue on what makes them tick...Any insight would be appreciated but I have the feeling it may be a subject none of us will ever truly be able to wrap our minds around without being one of those negative people. I can't speak for anyone else but I certainly have no desire to go there. Well that's about it for my nightly ramble. Although I must admit having been away there are so many things I would love to touch on, but I'll save it for another day.

Have a Bright, Beautiful Friday!
Peace be with you...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


I want to take a moment to extend a warm welcome to all of you who have stopped by from 'Link Referral'. I hope you will find my blog entertaining, interesting and hopefully funny from time to time. Please feel free to send a message or leave comments. And be certain to check out my poetry I've posted, with enough encouragement I may one day publish it all in a book!

Again thank you for stopping by!
Have a Bright, Beautiful Day!

Peace be with you...

Tuesday's ramblings...

Again I find myself in front of my computer, searching for words or ideas to write about. It has dawned on me that maybe sometimes I try to hard, that maybe I should sit back and let the words and ideas come to me. But what fun would that be, I could grow old waiting for inspiration from doing nothing but waiting. Strange thoughts, yes but I am certain that just about every author I know personally or not has had the same thought occur to them.

On another note I have finally conducted 2 of the interviews for my spicier blog 'The voices of sex', now the editing and posting is all that I have left with the first two of several. I have to say it has been very interesting taking a look into the adult world of phone sex, it is not as I had envisioned, and hopefully I will do justice to it through my interviews. Why write about phone sex you might be asking? Well to be honest my curiosity has always been set on high and when a girlfriend of mine in college was working pt as a PSO I used to pepper her with questions galore, never fully getting the whole story it left my mind open to wonder, now I am just merely filling that void. And if by some chance it helps to promote the ones interviewed, then that's great too. It's an all around win win situation. Of course there may be some of you who would prefer not to know, or read about it, and I can respect that.

Final notes for the morning. I have a full day ahead of myself with editing that needs done, websites that need to be finished or even started for that matter and a whole list of other things home related as well as school related (I homeschool my youngest).

With that all said I want to wish each and everyone of you a bright, beautiful and blessed day!

Peace be with you...

Saturday, July 11, 2009

I'm ALIVE!!!

It's AMAZING! I woke up this morning and I felt more alive today then I have felt in years! I believe a lot of it had to do with the connection my man and I made yesterday mixed with the fact I not only lost 20 lbs but I got into a swimsuit I haven't worn in over 7 years!!! This is a feeling I do not EVER want to lose again. Just thought I would share my thoughts for this beautiful, and might I add super hot southern Saturday...Have a Great Weekend!

Peace be with you...

Random Ramblings After Hours...

It's nearly 3am and I am sitting here once again at my computer. Thoughts running through my head like a freight train going to nowhere in particular. Now you might be thinking to yourself, 'This woman needs to get a life!' Well that's just it, I do have a life and it is that life that is causing the brigade of thoughts. Confusing, YES I know, lol! Some of my thoughts are as simple and daft as, I would love to have a paranormal distraction or even a romantic one, but at this hour, the paranormal is much more likely. And some are as complex as where would we like to move once we have things settled here, when would be a good time to start this project or that, the list goes on and on. But tonight one of my main thoughts is the main man in my life. Earlier today he proved to me that no matter how many ups and downs we've endured (believe there have been many) that our love is still as strong, if not stronger then ever before and its also shown me that if we can make it past the chaos that has made up the last 14 years then we can make it past anything! And last but certainly not least I am thinking of my youngest son, he's 10 and has his whole life ahead of him. However did I mention he is as bullheaded as his father and as mouthy as me, lol! Well folks that's about it for my random ramblings. See I warned you they were random, lol! With that and the weekend upon us, I hope that everyone has a safe and relaxing time. Nitey Nite All...

Peace be with you...

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Thoughts for Thursday...

Today has been good. Although it's been a very lazy day and I've been procrastinating again. Yes my own worst enemy "procrastination" it is almost as foul as a four letter word spoken at the most inopportune time. My thoughts on the other hand have been flowing at an unstoppable pace. Thinking about which project to start next, how the bills will get paid next month and the month after with my partner being deemed disabled now, unable to return to active work for at least a year, on to where I would love to move too (anywhere but here that is) and on and on and on... Of course my thoughts help along my procrastination a great deal, because as long as I'm daydreaming/thinking I am not doing all the things that need to be done...So with that said, I guess I should listen to the calls of the laundry and the dishes, not to mention the rumbles of the tummy's that have yet to be fed tonight, lol!

Peace be with you...

Too Write or Not to Write...That is the Question..

Sitting here alone in my own personal little space of the house, pondering and playing with the idea of writing a book based on the hellish experiences I have had over the past 14 years. The need to write on this subject does not come from wanting to ruin anyones reputation or revenge, nor does it come from the greed of money. The idea comes from the need to box up the past and place it where it belongs, in the past. For too long I have given energy to these people, to these events. So much so it has taken away from the people I love most, and it has taken from the life I wanted to have. I've only recently realized what all I have scarificed to it, to them. I have also realized that my life is no where near over. As long as there is still a breath in my body, I can make the changes that need to be made to insure the rest of my days are not squandered away. Just my thoughts...On to dream sexy...

Nite Nite All!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Forbidden Love

My sweet lover, for what are we to do?
He loves me and She loves you.
We do care for them in our own little way
But you and I vowed to be one, again someday.

It may take months, or maybe even years,
To think of it brings a river of sorrowful tears.
Why can't love just be blissful and true?
Instead of making our hearts so sad and blue?

For now we must lead our separate lives
Living with our spouses, telling them lies.
Just so we can share one more thrust,
While we harshly betray our partners trust.

The guilt we both should feel just isn't there,
To some it might seem we don't really care,
But we toss and turn throughout the night,
While the ones we don't truly love holds us tight.

Our love we share is worth all the heartache and pain,
We endure the torture, just to see each other again.
One day we'll find the courage and strength to leave,
Leaving our partners behind in shattered disbelief.

But for the time being, our love must remain a secret
While were forced to endure the pain and regret.
Consoling each other with our forbidden embrace,
As we cherish the love no other can ever replace.

Love is...

Love is indescribable when we first feel it,
it leaves us longing to hold on to it.

It makes us weak in its wake and,
leaves us empty when our heart it breaks.